You will still be you
Perhaps I was naive, perhaps you are too. For those of you wanting to leave the rat race for self-employment, and expecting all your problems to disappear, or at least expecting those that you attribute to work to disappear, I am here to tell you this; you will still be you. If you are prone to melancholy, to fatigue, to disilliusionment, to the blues, and you think they are all because of work, be prepared.
I hated my job, and I mean hated it more than anyone I know. I blamed my bouts of the blues, my defeatist attitude, my fatigue, my not wanting to be here on that lone fact. I knew I would have all the time in the world, when I left, I knew my aches and pains would disappear. I knew I would create a world that would be interesting, evolving, fulfilling, all I needed was to get away from work.
It has been two months now, the honeymoon is over, and I am still me. Business actually has been overwhelming the last 6 days. A far cry from two weeks ago. Will it be enogh to support me? I cannot tell yet. My trading has been in the sewer though, and in the last week I dented a car, broke my laptop and had to buy a new desktop. Is that hte reason for my mood? Nope.
My aches and pains are still here as well. And sometimes just for an instant there are people I miss from my old job. Perhaps I need to contact them.
Your business will become your NEW life, and while it is yours, and let me tell you I am not wanting to go back for one instant. Life is not a tropical beach either. I am at it a lot, it can over take your life, if you let it. Sales are up that is good, orders are behind, website needs to be updated, products ordered, emails returned. Suddenly you find yourself feeling the way you did before.
But that is human, my humanness. I still am self-employed and wouldn't trade it for the world.
I hated my job, and I mean hated it more than anyone I know. I blamed my bouts of the blues, my defeatist attitude, my fatigue, my not wanting to be here on that lone fact. I knew I would have all the time in the world, when I left, I knew my aches and pains would disappear. I knew I would create a world that would be interesting, evolving, fulfilling, all I needed was to get away from work.
It has been two months now, the honeymoon is over, and I am still me. Business actually has been overwhelming the last 6 days. A far cry from two weeks ago. Will it be enogh to support me? I cannot tell yet. My trading has been in the sewer though, and in the last week I dented a car, broke my laptop and had to buy a new desktop. Is that hte reason for my mood? Nope.
My aches and pains are still here as well. And sometimes just for an instant there are people I miss from my old job. Perhaps I need to contact them.
Your business will become your NEW life, and while it is yours, and let me tell you I am not wanting to go back for one instant. Life is not a tropical beach either. I am at it a lot, it can over take your life, if you let it. Sales are up that is good, orders are behind, website needs to be updated, products ordered, emails returned. Suddenly you find yourself feeling the way you did before.
But that is human, my humanness. I still am self-employed and wouldn't trade it for the world.
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